FanFic - Max/Liz
"Yesterday's Letter"
Part 1
by RoswellPrincess
Disclaimer: Roswell and all itís characterís belong to Melinda Metz, Jason Katims and all the other wonderful creators of our favorite characters! Iím just borrowing them! Donít worry Iíll put them back just the way I found them. "Yesterdayís Letter" is from 98 Degreesís new album "Revelation" and the song belongs to 98 Degrees and their producers and whoever owns that. Please donít sue! Iím a poor high school student who pays lots of money for Show Choir funds therefore Iím poor!
Summary: Songfic, Max reflects. This is a companion piece to "I Try" which is Lizís POV so please read that one too k!
Category: Max/Liz
Rating: PG
Authors Note: This story takes place the day after Destiny and it is in Maxís POV. FEEDBACK PLEASE!!!!
I wrote a letter yesterday

Just trying to explain

Couldn't find the words to say

Cause you are so far away, so far away

I thought she knew. I thought she knew that she was my world. I told her, but it was to late. I feel like Iíve lost everything. Sure I have my sister and Michael, and even Tess, but the love I have for them canít compare to my love for Liz. I wish sheíd listen to me and come back. I need her.

I wrote a letter yesterday

It's so hard for me to face

That it had to end this way

But my love will never change,

will never change

Why did it have to end? What am I going to do? I keep telling myself that itís not over. I say itís just a bad dream Max soon youíll wake up. But I never wake up. Please God just let me wake up! What did I do to deserve this? Why did Liz have to be at the pod chamber? If she had never been there then she never would have seen my mother and sheíd still be with me.

When I search my soul to find the truth

About the love we shared

I wonder why you're no longer here

I wonder why she doubted me? I never wanted to hurt her. I just wanted to keep her safe. I canít keep her safe if she wonít let me and what if something happens to Naseado and the FBI comes after me again. What if they really do hurt Liz, like Pierce said. I wanted to die when he showed me that picture of her.

You can just walk away

But I don't feel the same

My heart still beats for you, breaks for you, sinks for you

And those feelings will never fade

I can't hide my pain

I can never hide the way I feel for you

I still canít get over it. She just walked away from me, like I meant nothing. I know she loves me. She told me in that bus after I was saved. Now she expects me to love Tess. Yeah right! I will never love Tess. I love Liz. I feel the tears start to fill my eyes and I try to blink them away. Itís no use. I let them fall.

I've been talking in my sleep

About the way it used to be

Girl I pray that you hear me

Then I'll see you in my dreams

Oh, in my dreams

I remember the day I told her I needed to take a step back. The hurt in her eyes was too much to bear. And then when she kissed me I almost didnít go through with it. I wanted to kiss her back, but I was so stupid. I walked away from her. I left her. I guess, I deserve this. I hurt her now she hurts me.

Well I can't forget the words you said

To pull away from my life

And no matter what I'll carry you inside

Why did she have to love me? I saved her, thinking nothing of it. But that made her love me. I tried telling her that it could never be anything. Why couldnít I have listened to myself? I never should have started anything with her. It just led to this.

You can just walk away

But I don't feel the same

My heart still beats for you, breaks for you, sinks for you

And those feelings will never fade

I can't hide my pain

I can never hide the way I feel for you

Now Iím alone. I can never be friends with Liz. We tried that. I donít think I could control myself around her. When I see her all I want to do is hold her. I know that when I hold her nothing will go wrong.

Sooner or later you're gonna realize

That this type of love happens once in your life

So open your eyes girl

And see what we could be

Maybe sheíll come to her senses? Maybe sheíll realize that we canít be apart. I mean what is she going to do without me. I know she needs me just as much as I need her. She canít deny that she doesnít love me. I know she does!

You can just walk away

But I don't feel the same

My heart still beats for you, breaks for you, sinks for you

And those feelings will never fade

I can't hide my pain

I can never hide the way I feel for you

I guess Iíll go to sleep now. Iíll dream about Liz and wake up to another day without her. Itíll get easier sooner or later. But Iíll never stop loving her. Iíll try to show her that in every way possible, so that maybe sheíll realize it and come back. I fall asleep with the possibility that sheíll come to her senses tomorrow. Tomorrow sheíll come back. Yeah tomorrow.

You can just walk away

But I don't feel the same

My heart still beats for you, breaks for you, sinks for you

And those feelings will never fade

I can't hide my pain

I can never hide the way I feel for you

THE END

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